Well, maybe I shouldn't say that. But I'm just feeling so out of the loop since I've been back to work. It's like I completely forgot that there's this whole thing going on called 'the world' that I've ignored since having Tucker.
Last night my office had one of its 'famous' happy hours. I say famous in quotes because, let's face it, the events are only famous in the company owners' minds. It's really quite amusing how much effort they put into throwing this thing. I really had no stomach for it, but I had to attend for at least a little while in a show of solidarity. Blech.
Anyway, I left after about an hour to go pick up Tucker from wrestling practice. No, he's not quite old enough to wrestle, but Brian takes him to practice because he coaches a mat club in the summer for kids around the county. I pick the baby up at practice after I get out of work.
It was a nice night with Tucker. He slept pretty well - from 9 to 2 a.m. and then again from about 3:30 to 7:30. We've got to work on him going back to sleep after he eats in the middle of the night, but that's another story for another time.
Anyway, fast forward to this morning when I got to work and felt completely left out because everyone was talking about the great time they had last night, how drunk they were, how hungover they are, etc., etc., etc. I just don't feel like a part of that world anymore. I'm not interested in hanging out with my coworkers, getting drunk. I'm interested in getting home to see my son before he falls asleep for the night.
It's weird, because I always like to be in the middle of everything. And now I feel very much on the outskirts. I don't mind so much, because I'd much rather be with my family. But it's definitely an adjustment.
A new beginning, again???
10 months ago